Life lessons: God & love first, priorities, vulnerability, family & happiness Making cannabis mainstream... Reflecting on vulnerability, living and loving. I got home from work, put my stuff down, and went straight to my cabinet. I packed my new favorite “piecemaker” pipe with Legalized OG, and went to my garage. I took a hit from the pipe, opened my garage and brought in my garbage and recycle bin, adulting… Then I finished my pipe and went back inside the house. I was feeling good….
I went to change and got comfortable. Then I was planning to do some work but instead I was inspired to document this very story and my thoughts. I put on some music. DunDunDunDunDun…..I was home alone, which is somewhat rare, and I soaked it all in. I don’t really like being alone but it was nice to just be with my thoughts, yes my elevated thoughts… Elevating the conversation... I reflected on my current struggles with love and being happy. And I thought about the messages that my amazing friends have shared with me; appreciation, being a go giver instead of a go getter, patience, self-love, God’s timing. And I recalled my phone conversation with my mom on the bus home earlier, and I don’t usually bring up deep issues with her but today I threw it out there, vulnerable, and she told me exactly what I needed to hear, the best advice a mom could give her child; to know my priorities. She reminded me of what’s really important. And we talked about her and my dad. It was nice. It was a short conversation, but enough to remind me of the best example of what love is and how I had been blessed to be around that my entire life. So I reminisced to my childhood, remembering how my dad put my mom first and how my mom put my dad first, in everything. How they were silly together. How they communicated. They were a team. We had sit-down meals together as a family everyday as much as possible, usually home-cooked! And I think I have gained the wisdom now to know I need to hold on to those loving family moments, and I’ll continue to appreciate and cherish the new ones even more. Thanks mom and dad for being a perfect example of love not just to me but more importantly to each other. Then I had another epiphany. I should cook for Robbie before he gets home from work! So I texted him about dinner but this text was extra special because I called him honey bear, which is rare and random. Honey bear just came to me but I think it really fits. And I realized, we don’t call each other by any cute nicknames, not even babe, which has always been a weird concept for me to accept, not a positive or negative feeling just weird, unsure. So I really thought about that, and I think its because we are just not used to it and both unwilling to be vulnerable saying something new, foreign, and uncomfortable. But then he responded with sugar dumpling, haha and that just made my heart smile and that felt and sounded right too. I think that’s the first step in both of us growing, being vulnerable, challenging each other. Seems silly and trivial but I think if we can both start using nicknames COMFORTABLY, it shows that we can grow together by just being vulnerable… So today’s takeaways, life lessons, keys & points to the game, ticket to heaven:
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Lise
3/15/2017 05:09:42 am
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